Jewelry, Life

In a previous post I mentioned that I was no longer a TV shopping virgin. I ordered some (a few isn't honest, some hopefully covers it) jewelry. The following three items have shipped (I took a picture from QVC and added the cost in case of future theft) and I'm anxiously waiting on them. I believe I will get them today. The top ring and necklace are Rose Blush Garnets, the bottom ring a black pearl.


















As I mentioned before I'm financially challenged. I have amassed a debt that is almost impossible to pay. But I'm still buying. This jewelry thing is a compulsion since the nasty step-daughter stole all my jewelry. My sister informed me that QVC will take anything back if I return it. The smart thing would be to return it. But will I? Should I?

Dbf is working 14 hours a day until Saturday. Then he will probably be here all day. We have talked very little in the past 2weeks +. I am so un-fake that I can't fake what I'm feeling, the fact that I've decided to move. It won't be pleasant. My sister is afraid for me. I don't think it will be anything other than nasty words which I've decided not to engage in. It's a fact. I don't want to say things in the heat of the moment. I will be calm.

A fellow smoker at work has been asking Dbf about me, concerned with how I'm doing. The fact that this is a man is a topic of contention with Dbf. Yesterday he gave Dbf a puzzle book for me. It's a SUKOKU book! I've not tried this new puzzle and am excited to try. I usually do Logic Problems. Anyway, Dbf is "way put out" about this. He inferred with his words that there is something going on between us. He simply doesn't understand friendship and compassion. I never talk to this man except on smoke breaks. Last year he had rotator cup surgery on his shoulder. I just think he remembers the isolation and pain and frustration of being temporarily disabled. He was being kind.

Oh, the View is on and Star is missing! Is she leaving immediately? One can hope. I like Joy's hair. It looks to hard to keep up though. I'm thinking of cutting my hair again. I don't know. My one aunt (Arizona) has a short cute cut. My other has a long pony tail. I think both look fabulous.

Oh, quiz - my son asked me if he can drive my truck to Kentucky this weekend. He is talking a friend to visit his son. He hit a deer in his car last week. This Neon looks like it can't possibly be driven. There is a missing headlight (because of the deer), a broken tail light, various dents. He is working hard (at my work place) and saving money - he has $4,500 so far. He is going to get a newer, nicer car soon. I know that he will go to Kentucky either way. I prefer him to be safe. The funny thing is that the truck isn't out of the shop yet from the accident. I expect to get it back tomorrow or Friday. What would you do? Oh I just remembered, the guy I mentioned above, when we were talking about the accident in my truck said "If your son wasn't in your truck he could have been hurt badly, or worse". He is so right since he was hit from behind and pushed into the car in front. In his little car he would probably have been injured badly.

Each day gets easier.

My walker and my flowers

My walker. This is the one thing I couldn't live without. Notice on the left. That is a reacher. My sister bought it for me because I'm not supposed to bend over. For 12 weeks there is a danger of dislocating my hip.

On the right is my grocery bag. That is how I get my phone, notepad, cigarettes, etc from room to room.












I actually went outside a couple of days ago to take pictures of my flowers. Here's the small garden in the front. The big green bush in the front was purple in the spring. The daylilly's bloom is huge.









I'm not in the blaming mood anymore - see yesterday's post. So I just want to say HI to everyone. I haven't had a pain pill since midnight, 14 hours. The pain isn't so bad anymore, the butt is no longer discolored. Heal *puts hand on own forehead* heal.

What to do with 24/7 and Lightsy is my topic

What does one do with 24/7 and the inability to navigate. When the pain pills wear off I just concentrated on relief. When the pills are working I watched TV, spent time thinking about my current life situation.

TV - we don't have digital so the only guide is the one that you have to watch from channel 2 to channel 99. On a good day I can't remember more than one number for that leghth of time, now my memory in my haze. So I just changed channels and watched the first thing that caught my attention. It didn't take long to get hooked on morning TV beginning with the Today Show, Kelly and Regis, The View. Yes Carey I have suffered through Star - gawd she's awful. I can't wait until Rosie joins. I love Rosie. But I will be back to work by then. THEN the soaps come on and I no longer watch them so I napped. I was every fearful that I would sleep past 4 when Ellen comes on. I love Ellen - but this week's shows were all reruns.

My cat has been my constant companion. He sleeps with me 22/7 - a cat needs to eat.

Enough about this - - - -

Lightsy's latest post 'caused me to blame her today. I will blame her for bringing me back to reality. My life is flowers and roses compared to the friends she blogged about. My heart is sad for her and her friends. I need this *slap across the face* ocassionaly to bring me out of a funk. *smooches* and {{{hugs}}} to Lightsy and the people she knows that are hurting!!!! Thanks for sharing and helping me *snap out of it*.

It's Sunday and the parade is today in SF (i think). A shout out to the California peeps who are attending and their guests!!!!!

I can't wait to get the hell out of the house. About 2 weeks and I will be having short ventures out.

Blaming HD and WARNING - picture of butt check

HD was the first peep I felt a connection to over there. He is intelligent, muti-faceted, and HOT!!! I followed him over here. His post yesterday made me shed actual tears. Why does such a wonderful person have trouble in love?????? So I'm blaming him for my tears yesterday.


Now, please be careful because the following is an actual picture of my ass, cut down so that it doesn't appear to be an ass. My nurse said it looked really good as some people's ass turns black. Mine, went straight to purple.

And, I'm so lonely!! Dbf or soon to be Xbf hasn't spent more than 5 minutes a day with me. My sister has been great and helpful. My youngest son has come over when we can but he has this new job and they are working ot and he needs the $ in case of a layoff at work.

I ordered something from QVC today. Lost my virginity, I did. Of course it was jewlery, my new passion. A black pearl ring, a muti-stoned ring, a rose-garnet ring and necklace.

Glow, Jen, Carey, maybe MM and MTW (as you all know) are enjoying the SF celebrations this weekend. I'm gellus. I think all of us should go out there next year for the celebration. What a hoot! Peep meet extravaganza!!!!! An if our next peep meet is during Gay Pride week we don't have to worry about certain right-wing, wrong-thinking people attending. Seriously, let's make reservations asap!!

With cymbals clanging, bells ringing

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Bionic updated, A Changed View of Life, and a Poll

The metal hip is doing better. The black/blue ass check is now light yellow/green. The incision looks less like an angry dog ripped me open and more like some crazed maniac with a dull knife attached. I can go 7 hours between Percocets and now have Loritab. Of course I will keep all 6 Percocets for an emergency later.

I've decided that my failures in life are based on my "taking responsibility for my actions" way of life. I am immediately changing to "it's XYZ's fault". You see most of the people in my life play the blame game. They seem to have no regrets. spend zero amount of time with introspection, have an unquenchable need to tell everyone who caused their problem, and therefore garner much sympathy. Here goes:

This is Nutz's fault. I hobbled out of my caged-in room and pulled some TGIF's potato skins out of the freezer, turned on the oven, placed them in and set the timer. I told myself to listen closely for the buzzer. I then glided into the LR to catch up on a couple blogs. Well, while trying to get Nutz's link to work to see what Asshat we have over there and taking notes of all her entries so that I could attempt to make an intelligent/witty comment on her latest post - yep, you got it I burned my lunch! Shit damn.

Tune in tomorrow for the next one of you who is ruining my life.

The poll concerns my hip. I actually took a picture of my incision and bruised butt. Should I post theses pictures or should I just use big girl words to explain?

And GO NAKOMIS!!!!! I love you girl and am only voting for you!

Bionic Woman

I'm home. That's all for today!

Pics

Blogger is up! Woo Hoo

This is the view from our patio. I liked the reflection on the water!








An adobe house in NM.








Monument Valley - it's very purdy!









The waterfall we walked up to just south of Wolf's pass in Colorado.








I'd never seen a saguaro cactus. They were blooming!



More later.

Surgery Monday - yikes!

There are amazing sites to be seen

As promised down there - it's Sunday and we are leaving Phoenix to drive to SW Colorado. I'm praying that Dbf won't rant for a week.

As we approach NE Arizona, Monument Valley spreads out before us. We decide immediately to check it out now and not later. We drive into the valley and are mesmerized by the beauty. I'd post pics but Dbf hasn't made the CD to transfer to my 'puter. We drive to every available corner and take massive amounts of pics. (Somewhere before this I buy a nice turquoise necklace and ring from, I believe, Chief Yellowhorse's place)

We leave Monument Valley in search of my timeshare location. But before we get far there is a casino. I just want to go to sleep but Dbf wants to stop. By the way, there is no cell phone reception in most of these places. We stop at the Ute Mountain Casino to call and tell the timeshare we will be a late-check in. Instructions gathered we gamble. And lose. We arrive at the timeshare at approximately 2:30 a.m. We left Phoenix at 10 a.m. I've very tired. (Carey your estimation failed, not from lack of skill but from total exhaustion of the subjects involved. Even he was too tired for sex!)

Monday morning arrives with sunny skies. We are hungry and don't have a clue where to go to get grub. Consulting the map for ideas for day trips we decided to take it easy during the day: eat and rest. We find another casino about 45 minutes sw of Pagosa Springs. After resting we go gamble again. I do fairly well, leaving with $60 extra bucks. Not the thousands I was hoping for because, you see, I have two vehicles and neither is now worth a damn!

Tuesday we drive westward into Colorado, through Wolf's Creek Pass. There is snow on the ground. It's odd to be around snow but it not be cold. We find a waterfall, walk up to it, take mountains of pics. We try to find a mountain dirt road to climb (in the car) so we can get higher. We find one, it's partial covered with snow shortly after beginning our trek. Then we encountered a fallen tree. Not to be dissuaded, Dbf knocks the branches off the tree and we limbo under the tree with the car. We climb, encountering snow occasionally and it is fun for me to try to drive through it without tumbling into the canyon on my left. Unfortunately we then encounter too much snow/slush for the vehicle to transverse. We get semi-stuck. There happened to be a guard rail at this location. I wonder why?!?!?. After using rocks for traction we manage to turn around and our forest/mountain trek is over. We eat, shop (I bought an amazing ring), go back to the hotel to get ready for our adventure on Wednesday.

Wednesday morning comes early - 6:00 a.m. We stumble out of bed, get ready and drive 60 miles on a two-lane curvy road to Durango (where I thought we were staying but it turned out to be in Pagosa Springs 60 miles East). Here we board the Durango Silverton train which traverses through the forest, over bridges with canyons below. It is a steam engine and we are in a railroad car that is open on the sides but covered with a glass top. It is a beautiful, relaxing trip to Silverton that takes 3 hours. At Silverton, an old mining town, there are two things to do for the 2 hours we are there: shop and eat. We do both. I take pictures of the town which has attempted to look like it did when servicing the mining industry. It did have dirt streets. The trip down is boring as we have already seen the sites. We return to Durango at 6 p.m. Another day gone and the end is near. yikes I'm not ready for the reality of real life!

Thursday I decide that Pagosa Springs is just too isolated for day trips. I gingerly approach Dbf about leaving early and staying somewhere else Friday and Saturday nights. We agrees enthusiastically. PHew! I consult maps and decide that I want to go to Santa Fe Friday and since Albuquerque is only 55 miles south of Santa Fe that we should stay in Albuquerque. Wanting to split the return to Phoenix up I think we should stay 1/2 between Albuquerque and Phoenix. Dbf is more interesting in driving all the way to Phoenix Saturday. It's fine with me but doesn't allow as much Native reservation touring as I wanted. We made one BIG mistake in this planning session. We decide to return to the casino, the second one Ute Sky Casino. There, Thursday night, in a desperate attempt to win some much needed cash we lose. And we lose alot.

*side note* I do like to gamble. The thrill of winning is addicting. No one in my life, until now, shared my sickness. Now Dbf is worse than me. My luck is 99% at roulette. Indian casinos we've visited don't have roulette. They have tables with Blackjack and poker. The blackjack minimum is $3 and the maximum is $5. It would take an extremely long winning streak to gain even $100. I, of course, lose $40. I've never been lucky at slots. I can sometimes play for a couple of hours on a small investment, winning some, losing more. They have a bank of $1 machines that some people are dinging away at. One person won $900, another $650, another $300 twice. These machines are very popular. While I'm playing blackjack Dbf gets an open machine. People are still winning. He is losing. Two machines he left, the next person wins $350 and $500. SHIT! I know this isn't our day but we are stubborn people. I have moderate short-term success at the $1 slots but, overall, we lost our asses.

Life is interesting that what we want (me a fellow gambler) turns out to be what we don't want. I want to leave, he's still got the bug and hope springs eternal.**

Friday we leave and trek to Santa Fe. On the way I want to visit some Pueblo's. We find one and watch a mini Pow-Wow with children dancing all decked out in colorful costumes. Dbf is tiring of driving so we head to Santa Fe. We find a free parking place in Santa Fe and walk around. There are native vendors with much for sale on one side of the street and us white folks selling stuff on the other side. Conundrum. The shops are nice but way way expensive. Santa Fe is a quaint town which I liken to Carmel/Santa Barbara California. Cute, but no one I know could afford to live there. I take pictures and we leave for Albuquerque.

Since we are traveling on freeways Dbf can get cell phone reception. This is bad. Short story, my boys have disobeyed and entered our house at various times. Dbf is ranting and ranting and ranting. I realize that they shouldn't have, but I'm on vacation and ranting at me non-stop will not fix anything. On and on and on and on!

We find a hotel in Albuquerque around Old Town. Because of the ranting we get into Old Town as it is closing. It looked interesting and I would love to visit again.

Friday night was tense, but quiet.

Saturday, our last full day. We leave for Phoenix. The drive (I'm driving this day because, honestly I do it much better) is spectacular to me. I like the terrain, the mesas, the hills in the horizon. We leave the highway and travel though the Apache reservation which is very forested. We don't find any vendors until we leave, at the south entrance. I purchased 3 necklaces for $15. They are very nice. The drive from the end of the reservation to Phoenix is very curvy and mountainy. The road has switchbacks. As the sun begins to set we get some amazing pictures of cactus, mesas, sky. It's beautiful.

Sunday we wake early to go to the "park and swap" he wanted to visit on our first day. There are many vendors but none with the type of items (decorations) I'm interested in.

We go to the airport, fly home.

It's over. It's too short, too stressful with ranting. It was, also, quite fun and very beautiful. I would like to do Santa Fe - Albuquerque - Phoenix again.

And from the "Instructions for Life" which hangs on my bullentin board by my desk:

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer! and
15. Be gentle with the earth!